11 :: jaga telefon mudah alih anda kawanku ::

yeah... alhamdulillah... aku berjaya memulangkan semula telefon mudah alih individu yang aku jumpe didalam toilet aras aku pada hari jumaat lalu. setelah menunggu selama 2 hari akibat manusia tu pulang ke rumah.

mesti tertanya-tanya telefon ape yang aku jumpa dan macam mana aku boleh jumpa kan? tengah hari jumaat selepas terkocoh-kocoh mandi akibat kepenatan mengajar rakan-rakan bermain tennis aku keluar dari toilet dan tersepak telefon tu. Nokia 5800 express music. serupa dan sebijik macam telefon aku. basah dan off mode. kepelikan. ingatkan ada manusia cuba bersedekah di hari jumaat. terus selinap telefon tu disebalik tuala. bukan menyelit-nyelit dimana-mana ye..jangan salah anggap.

meluru masuk dalam bilik dengan cepat sambil buat muka terkocoh-kocoh akibat kelewatan ke masjid untuk solat jumaat. Dalam bilik, beria-ia bercerita dengan roommate. huh.. eager tak sudah. Wakakakaka… niat baik diteruskan dengan berazam untuk mencari tuan telefon dimasjid. Fine, tunggu die pulang dan menunggu die kembali ke kampus.

Balik dari masjid terus berfikir kenapa telefon tu menjadi mangsa kaki aku kat toilet tadi. Dalam otak, macam-macam teori keluar. Dicopek, terjatuh, cuba bersedekah dan macam-macam lagi la.

Finally hari ni, jumpa tuan telefon dan pulangkan. Betul tanggapan aku. Telefon dicuri. Masa pulangkan, aku sempat peril-perli tuan telefon. Ayat mengampu yang tak sudah “ bro, terima kasih je? Belanja la makan. Aku selamatkan RM 1200 kau tu.” Tak sangka, tergoda gak. “boleh gak, kau set je time, nanti bagi tahu aku” yup!!!mengena..aku jawab slumber dengan muka berseri-seri penuh keimanan sebab baru lepas solat maghrib “tak pe, aku ikhlas la. Doakan aku Berjaya final exam ni je. Aku tak minta lebih” gitu~

Argh… tiba-tiba terasa diri hipokrit dah penipu. Ahaks. Anyway, memang telefon dan computer sangat digemari si kaki pencopek ye. Waspada!!!

Okay, nak kongsi sikit ilmu menjaga harta benda sendiri agar tidak menjadi harta awam.

1. Simpan di tempat yang selamat dan sejahtera
2. Jadi kedekut sudah. Tak perlu berlagak baik dengan memberi pinjam harta benda kat orang lain.
3. Kalau tidur, letak dalam bantal. Side yang paling dalam sekali.
4. Telefon dan computer tu, sila la on kan cirri-ciri keselamatan. Kod akses, nombor pengenalan rahsia dan letak la seberapa banyak kod-kod keselamatan.
5. Jangan percaya dengan semua orang sekeliling anda untuk mengawasi barang anda.

Setakat itu saja. Wasalam. Teruskan belajar tanpa henti. Cewah~

6 :: bukan emosi yang ku beri, cuma luahan hati ::

moody tiba-tiba,

tak sampai berapa jam aku berazam untuk study, aku kembali on laptop dan jari jemari ligat menaip itu ini. fb, ms, fs, tagged, flixters, blog, atp web, wta web... semua aku buka. damn. geram bercampur kecewa dan sedih. penat melayan karenah manusia. cuba memahami orang sekeliling kita. cuba bertegur sapa. menjawab tanya. mengerti setiap tanda.

ye, aku cuba berbaik dengan semua. dalam kehidupan, manusia mana yang mahu ditindas. manusia mana yang tak mahu dimengerti. manusia mana yang tak mahu dihargai. aku juga. kalau aku boleh cuba untuk memahami kawan-kawan sekeliling, kenapa tidak segelintir yang lain? aku tak tunding atau salahkan sesiapa pun dalam penulisan kali ni. ye, cuma menzahirkan rasa yang terperuk kat dalam dada ni.

cuba bercerita dan meluahkan. sekali lagi, aku tahu dia sebenarnya menyalahkan aku walaupun dia tak meluahkan nya secara terus. aku ngaku, aku sangat cepat marah. betul cakap dia aku ni emosi, semua benda tak kena, semua benda nak kritik. "perasan diri tu bagus sangat". aku tahu dia pernah luah kat aku ayat tu. itu pandangan dia. aku hormat lepas ni. aku akur apa dia cakap. lepas ni, insyaallah no more kritik. no more teguran-teguran lebih-lebihan. aku faham, setiap kali aku marah dan tegur dia, setiap kali itulah dia terluka sebenarnya. dia cuma tak bagi tahu je.

aku bataskan kerlingan aku selepas ni. aku cuba untuk tidak memberi respond yang tidak sepatutnya. ye, coretan aku kali ni lebih sastera. itulah aku sebenarnya. suka bermain dengan kata-kata dan bicara. itu aku yang sebenarnya. aku terpanggil untuk lebih telus dalam menceritakan hari-hari aku. sebab, bagi aku, setiap hari penuh bermakna dan tersendiri.

biarkan hari semalam menjadi sejarah yang aku perlu ingat. aku perlu tegas dalam semua perkara sejak awal. bukan memberi peluang yang akan dikhianat selepas itu. no more chance for those yang rasa aku pernah beri peluang untuk buat pelbagai perkara yang aku sendiri tak senang. benci dah untuk terus berpura-pura baik dengan semua orang. perlu jaga hati sendiri daripada hati orang lain. perlu ambil hati sendiri daripada mengambil hati orang lain. perlu juga untuk lebih individualistik berbanding berkongsi. aku pilih untuk individualistik. sebab, hati dan perasan diri ini perlu diletakkan tinggi berbanding persekitaran sekeliling. menanti hari untuk terus berubah.

8 :: war is beginning ::

mood study sudah mula meresap masuk semula

berdoa agar segala di bawah ini termakbul :

• meninggalkan fb,blog,ms,atp dan laman sesawang yang lain
• mengurangkan berjoli kehulu dan kehilir(mampukah?
• makan makanan berkhasiat
• mengurangkan gossiping dan umpatan!!!sigh..macam tak mungkin la nampaknye..
• banyak-banyak solat dan ingat pencipta (ouh..sangat drastik)
• relax and cool seadanya
• ouh..kurang marah2 and caras2 manusia sekeliling(mood bersabar telah diaktifkan)
• ada bnyk lagi..atas ni mungkin yg penting2 saje..

mulai hari ini

27/02/2010 - 07/03/2010

ialah study week ye!!!

so

be prepared

jgn mensia-siakan masa yg ada

wish me luck guys!!!

all the best to al Pre-Lawrians~

will be back soon!!!

hakimfaridzul

4 :: an email from my friend about love ::

10th grade

As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called "best friend". I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and handed them to her. She said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

11th grade
The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep. She looked at me, said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Senior year
The day before prom she walked to my locker. My date is sick" she said; he's not going to go well, I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade, we made a promise that if neither of us had dates, we would go together just as "best friends". So we did. Prom night, after everything was over, I was standing at her front door step. I stared at her as she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I want her to be mine, but she isn't think of me like that, and I know it. Then she said "I had the best time, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Graduation Day
A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as I hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, "you're my best friend, thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

A Few Years Later
Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is getting married now. I watched her say "I do" and drive off to her new life, married to another man. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't see me like that, and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said "you came!". She said "thanks" and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Funeral
Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my "best friend". At the service, they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years. This is what it read: I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn't notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me! `I wish I did too...` I thought to my self, and I cried.

15 :: she's mine ::

this is my 100th post that i left just

and

special for her

phewwww~

after a long time discussion with my own self

considering many things

understanding many situations and conditions

admitting my own weaknesses and strength

yeah

i do

proposed her

Nur Aqilah Binti Mahadi

on

14-02-2010

04:18 a.m

via calling and ym-ing

thanks to her...

RSC members

friends

and

my family

for supporting me

love all of you

and you too!!!

regards,

hakimfaridzul

6 :: im happy again ::

so many things happen

happy

sad

bad

luck

just didn't have enough time to write something here..

a bit busy since there are assignment and assessment to be done

but

i'm happy again

cheers all the time...

thanks to you!!!

yeah!!!

you!!!

this night i'm going back home

travelling from Sungai Petani to Shah Alam..

wish me okay..

and the bus too...

regards,

hakimfaridzul